it's over

i had a best friend for a year.
i had someone i loved for a year and two days.
and now i do not.

i can't concentrate on my newly found singleness.
all i can say is why?
today was unbearably difficult.
In spite of everything, I still love him.

i gave im everything, and put him infront of everything and everyone.
even my family.
i lied for him, gave him money, and kept him out of jail.

now i'm hoping that he will get locked up so that there's no chance of me running into him.
i'm sick of crying and i just want to fast forward to months from now when i feel even slightly okay.

he was everything to me.