whoo

play practice suckssssssssssssssss.

i try to have a positive, but there is only so much a girl can put up with before she flips her shit.
(like last thursday)

i basically just freaked out.
and although things arent going smoothy at all--i still have high hopes for a good show.
i want to convince andrew to help (;

meanwhile, my life seems a lot less dark.
i mean i still feel helpless/depressed/sucidal,
but not as often.
hip hip hor-fucking-ray !

i hate that a tonnnnnnnn of stuff is due.
and i miss a certain boy that i never get to see :/
[which is partly the reason for this depression]

i miss him even when i'm with him.
cause' i know that it will probably be days before i see him again.
we actually had a rare fight on friday.
i hate people that always get involved in my shitttttttttttt.

bahhh, i dont know.
i need to work on my language project.
im procrastinating.

;{
miss you cassidy by the way